Okay so...
Life is shit.
Night after every damn night, i sit listening to my parents in the other room arguing endlessly. Even as i type this there they are my drunken mother shouting at my fat deluded father to get out of this house. My dad has locked himself in the front room and my mother is banging on the door. I wish they would hurry up and leave.
And when I'm not at home i have to put up with the endless torture of Davenant Foundation School. Sure I've got my friends, but my education is turning to shit, I had a Chemistry exam yesterday. I got 2 E's. Not so great. Half the teachers in the school hate me due to my older brothers views and how just because I'm a Goodman I must be trouble. Well thats not entirely not true, the other teachers which hate me are because i have a short temper you see and get pissed off rather easy, so when the piss me off i usually say something. Not too good. But even when I'm not in a lesson i don't understand with a teacher who i wish would all off a high-rised building, I'm still stuck, trapped in this world which i hate. This life i despise.
"One day the mask will break and you will all see the smile i put on fade into nothing."
I pretend to be happy but when it comes down to it, I'm not. There is always a part of me longing just to end it. But it's the people that matter most to me, my friends who keep me going. Who find me when the mask slips a bit and put it back into place.
Its them i hope to see. It's them i love.
I find myself day after day sitting here at this computer waiting for something to happen, I don't know what i want to happen or when it's going to happen or even if it's GOING to happen but i still sit here waiting for it to happen. And one day hopefully, It will.
jameees, i had to comment, because you nearly made me cry. :/ i'm gonna come see you soon, and im gonna give you a massive hug. tbh, i love you too pieces, so dont do anything stupid, it'll all work out in the end, i promise <3 xxx
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